Monday, September 27, 2010
Itsu Datte Kimi Ni~
English
I want to meet you,
At any time, I'll always only want to meet you,
even now that I'm embracing you, all of you.
It results in us being able to smile
Surely, this light would shine first ahead.
I don't know what words to use to express my anguish
Only truthful words were used to put this to a close.
Nevertheless, just like how one is done as one is told, the eternal love remains unchanged, affirmed by the invisible bonds, intricately fastened together.
Even if it's such the case that I've gone down a path my heart chose
No matter where I go Now
That day Better make it through the loneliness
Well now, is it time to judge between accomplishing my feelings or the pursuing the continuation of my first-felt dreams?
I want to meet you,
At any time, I'll always only want to meet you,
I'm here for the sake of conveying my feelings
But at the same time I believe you can bear with the loneliness
Thank you always, for having that kind of mindset.
As I expertly overlooked the happiness by being alone,
I wonder why I realized the notion of the beating of two became so important.
I want to stare fixatedly, I want it to come together, but when it comes to making it work, I can't feel it.
Just the same as what's with this tearful era.
So don't cry over wanting this 'someone else'
This coincidental meeting we had reeks with certain significance Now
That day
Better make it through the sadness
Now then, on behalf of you I'll make a difference, I won't leave you carelessly again.
I want to meet you,
At any time, I'll always only want to meet you,
even now that I'm embracing you, all of you.
It results in us being able to smile
Surely, this light would shine first ahead.
I want to meet you,
At any time, I'll always only want to meet you,
I'm here for the sake of conveying my feelings
But at the same time I believe you can bear with the loneliness
Thank you always, for having that kind of mindset.
I want to meet you,
At any time, I'll always only want to meet you,
even now that I'm embracing you, all of you.
It results in us being able to smile
Surely, this light would shine first ahead...
Hehe the English lyrics are so sweet^^
Okok really going to study alr and eat dinner haha.
4:42 AM
Overwhelming.
Hmm let's not have any paroxysms right now, shall we?
My right hand nearly broke from all the essay-writing today but thank God I survived. Heh.
Sorry not really in the mood to type about my day x.x
I'm sorry for being uncontrollably jealous at times;
I don't want envy to overwhelm me.
This isn't some drama on TV, I know,
but still...
It seems like we're really playing out what we see on TV unintentionally.
Regardless though, I will try my best to not be envious of you,
and be content with all that I have.
Thank you for always being there for me,
and I'm sorry that I'm jealous of you at times.
I'm sorry, and I'll try to learn to be satisfied with what I have in life.
I don't want to lose a friend like you,
and I promise I won't let my infinitesimal bit of jealousy grow,
because I don't want our friendship to break.
I'm sorry, and I promise you I'll not let this feeling overwhelm me.
I'm sorry.
Shall go and do homework and study now~ Then it'll be time to work on some sort of music. ^^
4:19 AM
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Trust.
I can't believe I'm experiencing all this in the midst of my heart. x.x okay God, I really hope that I'm still normal.
Hope I'm not going crazy or anything. Bleh.
Why am I feeling that somehow, everybody will break their trust in me? I've been pondering about who I can really trust for the past few months alr. And honestly speaking, it feels like I'm afraid to trust people.
Wow, so betrayal really does have that impact on you. Interesting much?
Sigh, I'm sorry for my imperfections everybody. :( I may not be able to get rid of them, and for that I'm sorry also.
... I wonder what will happen in future? God holds tomorrow~
But I still wish I could have a glimpse of the future.
This lurking fear is freaking me out, because I don't want to be a pessimist and view the world in such a dark perspective. I would love to be optimistic and really believe that "Everything will work out in the end", but I guess I need more time.
Where's the courage when I need it?
Guess I shall stop polluting my blog with my emo rubbish, and get on with life. Heh^^
Sorry if I made you sad with my rather depressing blog post. :/
8:02 AM
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Hi. ^^
went to study with Emily & Jiamin yesterday at terminal 2^^
had macs for lunch, then after that we really study. as in really really study. supposed to study compo but ended up studying math? hahaha.
anyway i'm going to flunk today's maths test alr haha. which just means i have to cram hard for maths final paper haha.
to sum up yesterday, it was awesome :>
went to comics connection after studying HAHA. then emily bought a yunho notebook and i bought a jaejoong notebook & pen HAHA LOL. twin notebook^^
then after that headed to rachel's house for awhile^^, talked for quite awhile & practised guitar for abit, then i was trying to call a lot of companies for a kpop night backstage ticket haha. since rachel wants it and i'm so good at whining (not exactly a good thing but whatever HAHA), might as well take up the job (can annoy the heck out of people by whining for the ticket also). LOL
again, yesterday was AWESOME~
-today-
had school and was almost late once again xD err yeah lessons were boring, and i was whining like crazy in my head during assembly -_- thank goodness i was sitting beside emily & joey otherwise i would've died of boredom alr! after school had lunch with clarice @ terminal 3^^ yes i've been going to the airport on monday, tuesday and wednesday HAHA. been eating macs for 3 continuous lunches also yay!!! i like (Y).
talked a lot over lunch and over all the traveling etc^^ then we went to candy empire after finishing our lunch. candy empire = candy/chocolate heaven (Y) haha. bought chocolates & pretzels but ran out of money alr x.x then clarice bought lollipops & a tube of m&ms^^ bought 2 lollipops from her! hahaha.
okay fine i shall be a good girl and go do my chinese. and try to study science today. bleh.
messaging emily now & texting wanfang now~
love you all my friends ♥
3:24 AM
Monday, September 20, 2010
Convos at night^^
Talking with Wanfang on MSN now^^ and sms-ing Clarice hehe.
Waiting for Emily to replyyyyyyy~ TWIN I CAN READ YOUR MIND xD haha!
Urgh anyway I feel so crazy. I feel pissed & high (?) okay moodswings lol.
EH WANFANG I AM NOT CRAZY STOP RUBBING IT IN!!! HAHAHAHAHA!
I am very shy and quiet and innocent one. Why you all don't believe me. I am actually very quiet one. I only say "Hi" when I see people. See, this is what you call shy.
WHY YOU ALL DON'T BELIEVE ME?!?
I am a very silent person who really cannot hit up a conversation one. Cos I am very shy and you must believe me!
Then you all whole day think I am psycho up there & I am bonkers when I am actually so shy. tsktsk so bad! :(
HAHAHAHAHAHA OKAY I WAS TALKING RUBBISH. HI. I am going high *always happens when I talk to Wanfang*
haiya I want to eat chocolate. :( then SOMEBODY *ahem ahem* keep rubbing into my face she got a lot of chocolates. HMPH. I DONT LIKE YOU COS IM JEALOUS WHOLE DAY RUB INTO MY FACE?!? ok joking i love you k fang hehe^^
okok enough of my rubbish LOL
7:43 AM
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Mooncakes & lanterns
haha yesterday was awesome^^
had school from 7.30am-8pm, though i was like half-dying in the morning but whatever that's not the point. the point is, thanks to my dear friends who made me go high and survive instead of letting me sleep while walking hahahaha. xD
reached school at 7.30, was almost late but wasn't :> can't be bothered to wake up early haha.
was half-sleeping in Maths & English, then finally it was recess wheeze.
-recess-
went to library with Emily^^ then we went back to class, but we didn't want to stay cos of, um, k never mind lol, so went down with Joey^^
had breakfast and we were talking 'cos its fun :> hehe. Ffnished eating alr, so we went up to class? haha. love talking to them^^
-postrecess-
err then had malay lol and i was drifting off somewhere please, can't be bothered to listen :>
then had a short presentation for lit and zomg i am royally screwed kthx. was banging on my guitar... not in a good way. didnt really compose anything for the rhythm beforehand so it was an impromptu thing, and a lousy one heh. hope i won't royally screw up the entire thing again when it comes to the real thing -_-
then science revolved around doing worksheets, anyway i cant be bothered to talk about science because i dont like science :p
and yay class has ended. :>
after class = guitar ensemble oh yeah. i love my cca heh. if music was the food of the love i would be banging on my guitar everyday k not really HAHA. *is babbling nonsense*
-guitar ensemble practice-
was sitting in between emily & charmayne hehe^^ was talking to them all along during practice :> fun!~
okay so we played hou lai again and again and i was dying because i havent fully learnt the rhythm for hou lai and if you ask me to learn melody i will die also HAHAHA.
then after awhile mr shi pointed out that rhythm is supposed to sit together so i had to change place :( sorry!
so i sat beside celine and we were playing rhythm together :> then after that we played lambada and i was screwed again cos i was playing the rhythm and i dont know where to repeat HAHAHA *dies*
played spanish air once more i think then guitar ended. I LOVE GUITAR ENSEMBLE^^
-after guitar ensemble-
had loads of fun with emily, celine, charmayne, heidi, winn and her sister :> too much to elaborate? hahahaha. had macs for lunch also^^ delivery to school is fun! HEHE^^ love you all~
so around 4+ emily and i headed back to class cos we're supposed to assemble for the mooncake festival celebrations lol. apparently we couldn't go in cos some guys were changing inside *rolls eyes* anyway after some repeated methods of irritation i got really irritated and barged in HAHA. no i didn't see anything i wasn't supposed to see, and no i wasn't being a pervert my sole purpose was just to leave my stuff in class^^ i claimed that my virgin eyes burned HAHAHAHA. quoted from emily's friend :>
then amelia, emily and i headed down to the canteen~ talked for awhile then went back up again, we could care less about them and we barged in heh^^
practised guitar abit more with emily, and then finally it was time for us to assemble in the hall^^
-celebrations in the hall-
if i remember correctly there was the chinese orchestra performance, then the chinese drama performance, and wushu performance, dizi performance and some song presentation by a few teachers right? 0.0 dont remember, kinda got bored halfway xD but had to admit they performed quite well~ i like the wushu one! swords are so cool heheh. :> and i think i only liked the first song that CO played cos got that mystical and cool feeling LOL.
emily, joey, zech and i were discussing about our plans to join dance after eoys :> hehe! i wanna learn dance~ but at the same time i want to take vocal lessons, learn piano, harp, violin and taekwando/karate also HAHAHAHAHA. fun what. xD
then emily and i were discussing about poly/jc/sota... eheheheh. kinda feel like going to poly/sota instead; more freedom xD
yeah and then we talked a lot more about everything under the sun^^
I PROMISE TO BE BFFs KYOUNG-MI!!!
and someday maybe the fluffies can have a package tour... to somewhere. HEHE. xD
then we headed down and had 1/8 of a mooncake each LOL. then carried around lanterns :> so fun lighting the candles! heh. took pictures for abit, then roamed around the school. seriously i think the point of this celebration was to let us tour the school, which i don't really care about cos im happy as long as i know my way around HAHA. took pictures of the pretty lights, then headed back to class. bleh i cant believe we actually put our bags in class! they locked the classroom so apparently we had to wait till 7.45 for people to come and open the door so that we could enter. -_-
talked more while waiting, and some of us were trying to break down the door HAHA. okay but our plan failed like duh but it finally opened and we were expressing our hallelujahs and we barged in and took our stuff. finally went out which was a relief since i was getting annoyed by the on/off of the lights LOL. my eyes were getting annoyed :p
then we headed out and i was like shouting "zomg thanks for making me go high and survive today despite 3 hours of sleep" then i was smiling like a little kid on Christmas and flailing my arms rather wildly i might say. and i think this woman saw me then she just smiled but i think she was thinking that i was bonkers la HAHA. so i smiled back and pretended nothing happened HAHAHAHAHA. *tries to save self from embarrassment*
pei-ed emily to wait at the bus stop with her parents cos i had nothing better to do at home anyways^^ then i was opinting out about how HOT the person on my file was *winkwink hinthint* ;)
was staring at him the entire day today!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i feel crazy but its okay because i am not from a mental hospital and i mean it. :>
chatted with her more^^ think the entire celebration made me go high (Y) which is good~ anyway her parents came alr then i just headed for home while dad bought me dinner. couldn't really finish so shared with kor lol.
nua-ed abit then fell asleep at 11+ while talking to wanfang halfway x.x sorry fang! :(
******* ends day *******
woke up at 1+ today HAHAHAHA. i feel like such a sloth^^ but its ok cos im the twin of a panda! LOL.
didnt go out with wanfang today so nua-ed at home instead xD
today my time was mostly spent with my computer, guitar & handphone. :>
talked with emily, then changed her blogskin (which i hope is okay for her despite the fact that i didnt manage to find a picture of yoona =x), then i created this blog cos im bored of tumblr. HAHA.
then practised guitar abit, then rachel called and we talked, then i ordered pizza for dinner^^ i know you're jealous. LOL
okok anyways, i gotta go shower alr kthxbai.
P.S LOVE YOU ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS^^
3:23 AM
Hi.
2:59 AM
